crap

it's amazing how emotions can change thru out the day yah~ rough days ahead... the charity proj ting is seriously pissing me off. i hab no idea whet it's communication breakdown or wad. but i just dun like the idea of ppl passing of my ideas as somebody else! this is happening so freq tat i dun even bother correcting it... somehow it's always one person's decision n I just hate the idea of people changing stuff i've done without informing me! however small or minute i just dun enjoy tat. mayb i'm just a petty asshole but yah wadeva!
i tink i'll hab trouble working next time ba~ i don't like losing control of situations n aiyah~ just tons of issues tat i'm pissed ova
mayb it's just mi.. it's all becoz of tat stupid back prob tat makes me such a incapable old folk! damn it! i'm just wasting tons of time swimin <--someting i realli dread doing! plus i can't even carry all the shirts to the locations! alwaes hab to trouble someone! *curse n swear* i feel like a useless idiot sia! doing so much sales last week has also prove to be terrible coz mi now sometimes hab like stingin pain at my back! crap!!
plus somehow my printer can't work! n printing at library cost mi 30 cents each! i'll burn the library down one day! hrmph!
oh n after like rushing like mad n queuing like mad over the pass few days due the the $ stuff n trying to come up with a proper report, all i get is " eh... i retyped the whole ting for u, quite easy lar ur job!" wah i really feel like slapping someone man! i mean i know it's not a tough job lar but somehow it's rather physicalli demanding for mi! just be slightly appreciative can?!
i know the format looks slightly queer coz i dun hab exel n need to like change it to some pic format. but just inform mi bout' changes ma. like ???
tink i'm jus pms ing lar .. dunno too mani tings too little time or wadeva lar... i'm just a incapable idiot complainin bout stupid stuff tat i tink i'll forget in like 8 hrs time.. no i dun tink i'll forget but i'll just store it in my brain bank n hope tat i'll neva take it out... yah~ seriously i need to learn to be more professional n realistic. not all people r like the people tat i hab met n i'll hab to live with tat. now i know wad's dagger behind the smiles! xiao li chang dao!
i need to learn do produce results too. so far sponsors side no info.. looking back wad hab i done 4 the proj? i seriously dunno .there's like no serious milestones worth mentioning.. so wad hab i been doing all the while? spending like ten thousand hrs on the com n phone. postponing my nail course n not teachin my bro, spending tons of money duno on wad ?!