some updates on my life for my own reference

I guess typing my little thoughts here will be a better idea compared to drafting it in word doc and losing it when i lose my laptop. (unless blogspot closes down or mankind decides that tech advancement is not the way to go and shut down all data that is store somewhere out there which i dont know where) Anyway, I mean who will imagine that after tugging my pathetic laptop around for close to five years, I will actually be so careless and lose it at a bus stop? oh well... i've learn to live without it.
Hmm... life has been kind of calming these days. I have gotten use to my new lifestyle, my new 'work' etc etc. Today is an especially calming day. Waking up in the morning and snoozing till i decide to wakeup, flipping through the newspaper n going through all the comic strips in the life section then checking out face book and replying emails. Then i realised that i have nothing much to do for the rest of the day. :) I used to dread this kind of days right? but now somehow not having my days packed to the max is not bothering me too much. I have learnt to take it slow and not be too uptight somehow. Not too sure how this is going to change when i start work. hmmm... even during the first 2 mths after i grad, i was so depressed because I didnt have enough makeup jobs and things to do. I was bored and I felt a little useless. plus, i wasnt earning enough to go on holidays and go on spending sprees. alot of time + no money = bad bad life. so thankfully, i somehow got tons of tuition offers after cny and i took some of it up. but the thing is i have no idea what will happen to them when i start work. Should i kill myself and have tons of tuition on weekends after working 5 full days or what? their olevels is like just less than 6 mths away and i really dont think it's ideal for them to switch tuition teachers. Attempting to do makeup full time was also a disaster initially. With so few contacts, it is really hard to get myself busy and get my ideas through. It is alot better now and my weekends are almost all packed till my starting date. The problem now is i feel quite stressed. the more you do, the more pictures and works that I have, the more expectations the photogs have of me. sometimes i feel that i have to work doubly hard so that they will be happy with the results. but then again, art kind of stuff can be subjective right? I just hope that the rest of the planned shoots will end up well. :) i have like more than like 10 shoots planned! which is real nice. and the money will allow me to be spending quite comfortably in korea n hk n mongolia i guess. :) yeah! but the sad thing is i think i might have to give these all up when i start work. i mean i dont want to work myeslf to death ya. after seeing so many friends getting depressed over work or over their job search, i think it is not worth it. i mean i am not looking to buy big ticket items in the near future so an income like what i am getting even now, without a full time job is more than enough (provided I dont keep traveling. haha). actually i'm so so comfortable with my current lifestyle, i'm wondering how i can adjust to the corporate life. I mean i think tons of the people out there will want to trade their lives with me. (aside from the pay) haha. for the past 2 hrs, i was happily drinking tea and reading a random book about lives of some women and how they deal with husbands that are cheating on them, failing careers etc etc. Somehow i think as much as it is fiction, these happenings are common in real life too. As friends share their stories, (i have a lot more time to spend with ppl nowadays and more time spent, more stories shared etc etc) i realised that everyone's life seems to be so so different and interesting in good and bad ways. every one should have their own biblo too! anyway i realised that i have quite a bit of outstanding things to do; like coming up with my stencils and my designs. but i guess all those can wait ya. i'm the boss in my life now before i sell my soul to the company. so today since i dont have the mood to do do those, i shall just go n have a swim later in the afternoon and maybe go chill out myself at some place. hmm... have to go figure out where though... somewhere cheap n nice. anyway, i'm seeing the doc again this fri. hopefully after this session i will not have to go back anymore. say hi to short skirts and sleeveless and tube tops or whatever la! if all goes well, i will indulge on a major shopping spree in Ko rea! life is fair right? since i suffered so much over the last few months the next few months will be good i hope? looking forward to that. :)
10 more weeks before a major change in my life. i'm kinda anticipating it but i think i will miss my current life. so heck la, shall just enjoy like mad now k. want to spend spend, want to sleep sleep. want to work work, live with my heart not my head for now. loves!